I’m feeling sick, and I know I have to let myself be sick if I need to and all that, but nothing is helping me with the anxiety. I can’t calm down enough to get any rest, and I’m running on 3-4 hours of sleep at this point.

Yesterday I had coffee on an empty stomach (which was already a bad idea), and then later had pasta and went to bed. Unfortunately, I was already feeling ill yesterday before (and especially after) the pasta, and I barely slept.

Today my stomach hurts, and I have this gagging feeling in my throat that really scares me, + I just feel gross in general. I wouldn’t be surprised if I really did get sick right now. I would like to get through today without getting sick but I know that that isn’t possible sometimes.

I’ve tried telling myself that I’ll be perfectly fine if I do end up getting sick, and I really have nothing to be afraid of, but nothing seems to stop this panic I get, and I’m not sure what to do right now.