About a year ago I badly damaged my knee playing football and have since had months of very painfulphysio to try and avoid having an operation.
My specialist (not to mention family and friends) have got more and more frustrated and confused that I've put myself through this rather than just have surgery but I managed to keep convincing them it was getting better. It took me a couple of months to walk properly again but after that I began jogging andhad been doing quite a bit of running.
But a few weeks ago the knee went and the specialist made me promise that if there was no progress in a month, I'd have an operation. The appointment with him is tomorrow and I know deep down that I've run out of time and excuses - I'm going to have to have the op.
I haven't told anyone why I've been so desperate not to have it. But as emets you'll understand when I say that when I last had an operation, it was when I was a child and I was very sick afterwards - in front of strangers as well. I also visited my cousin after she had an op a couple of years ago and she was sick everywhere soon after waking up. I've been hoping and praying I wouldn't have to have an operation but really I've got no choice.
What a summer it's going to be. Am already being pressured into getting a plane for thefirst time in yearsand now I've got a nice operation to look forward to as well!