Hey everybody,
I haven't been here for a while. I was trying to stay away for a while b/c I wonder if reading it everyday keeps it at the forefront. I am on today though b/c of the night I had last night. I am home today b/c of it. I will try not to make this long. Anyway, for some reason I had v* on my mind yesterday in addition to MANY other things. I began to feel a bit anxious when we went out to dinner so I took half a xanax. I did feel better. Well when we got home I noticed my stomach feeling crampy and very active. Of course this opened up my mind and I gradually feel into panic. I was soooooooooo nauseous. I took another xanax but it didn't help much. I was up all night. It was horrible b/c my thoughts were running rampid. I have never let my anxiety run away with me in such a severe manner.
I would like to tell you what I have been dealing with in my life and I hope someone can relate and help me understand how my stress contributed. Well my husband I have been trying for more than a year to get pregnant. I continue to be disappointed month after month. Last month I tood Clomid for the first time. I was supposed to start Friday but have just been spotting. Everyday that goes by without starting makes me wonder what is going on. I am usually very regular. I have taken a test. Also I have been on a strict diet the past month. Well yesterday I strayed and had pizza for lunch and pasta with cream sauce for dinner. I have a feeling that started my issues last night but I was so scared I was sick my anxiety kicked in and there began the cycle. I don't know what things like acid reflux feel like. All I know is I kept having some sort of burps coming up through my chest. Plus bad cramps throughout my stomach and chest. I am soooo upset today b/c I really feel like this has been a major setback for me. I thought I was passed this kind of anxiety attack and now I see what exactly can happen. Can anyone enlighten me on either Clomid and is that causing me to start later or help me understand if what I ate could have caused those physical feelings? I am so sorry everyone this is sooooooo long and boring. As you guys know, no one else can possibly understand. Thank you.
Murphy