Hi, I'm new here. I'm 36 and have two children and have never thrown up. I have always been terrified of it. My youngest son just got overa stomach flu and I've been drugging myself with Promethazine and Klonopin for days "just in case". I'm wondering...if I were going to catch it...how long would it take for me to know? I'm living in terror every minute of the day and night...I can't sleep because I'm afraid I'll wake up in the middle of the night sick and I think as long as I'm awake, I can watch for signs and control it somewhat or take another pill.
Also, I'm so scared of throwing up or feeling so nauseous that I may throw up that I'm afraid I'll slit my wrists if it ever happens. I know that's a terrible way to think and that it's incredibly irrational but I am seriously more afraid of getting sick than death...except that I love my children more than anything. I'm being torn apart by this fear and I'm wondering...if it happens, how do I get through it? How would I handle it without doing something drastic? I'm so scared I don't know what to do. Can anyone offer any help at all?
Kathleen