Why is it that when I think of all the times I V*ed I don't remember it being THAT bad or THAT scary. In fact I remember this one time where I was V*ing like all day (That only happened once the other times I v*ed I only V*ed twice and that was it) but anyway I remember watching TV then calmly getting off of the couch and walking into the bathroom and V*ing. I don't get it. I was NEVER scared to V* myself when I was a kid, I was only afraid of others doing it. Now all of a sudden I'm scared of it and I don't understand why. I never had any truamatic expereinces with it, I mean like I said, I remember being calm and cool. What's up with that?


~Monica