The past few days i,ve been feeling stressed out by all of this abut
getting back into eating. I know that if i do eat it will give me more
energy, i can look forward to doing more things, i need to gain
wieght as, as soon as i do my mums taking me to america, but she
said i had to gain some weight and eat more to do so, and im getting
my mo-ped soon. Its like its not always the fact of i might be sick
thats why i don't want to eat, i think maybe its just because i havnt
done so in so long im afraid to get better? and i keep going on about
it. I got really upset this morning about it all and i went to the doctor
and he said to me that my antisickness would stop me being sick no
matter what, as why would he give them if they didnt work? and i
know they must work as the woman in the hospital had that winter
sickness thing really bad and they gave her the same medication and
she was fine afterwards, she was up drinking and eating again within
a couple of hours. Maybe i should just eat and get over it? but then i
regret it afterwards and think 'i shouldnt have eaten that', but i got
told i have to eat every 2 hours and i can have as much food as i like
as i really need the weight gain as my weight is to low. Its all
confusing. Im not sure what foods are high in fat but are not in too
big of portions. Sorry for the rant..