Feeling like this is all too much. I don't want to deal with this anymore. I'm so tired. This constant anxiety is exhausting.
If I didn't have my kids, I think I might end it. I don't know what is worse, my kids having a screwed up mom who is always cranky and preoccupied, or losing me early on, when it might be less traumatic for them. Even thinking this way makes me so sad. My girls deserve a mom who is sane and reasonable. I dont think I am either right now. I don't know what to do. I am looking for a therapist, but I don't know how much more of this I can take.