What is it that we are sooo afraid of?

[silver]

I was stressing with emet last night and worried as usual for no reason. I started to think..what am I actually afraid of?? For me I realized, its not the actual act of v*, but more I am afraid that I won't be able to "handle" myself if I do v*. I am afraid that it will be so painful and just terrible. I thought back to the last time that I was sick with a sv* and I remember having d* and v* both and it definately was not fun, but it really wasn't that bad and I just sort of survived through it with no anxiety. Now because of the emet, I am so afraid that when it happens I will literally freak out and be out of control. I guess that's my biggest fear, what are yours??

[samara's on tv]

One of my biggest fears when it comes to V*ing is that I won't be able to stop. I mean I know that I won't like CONSTANTLY V* for hours on end, what I mean is I'm afraid that I'll do it once or twice, and then later eat something and then V* and so on and so fourth, that I won't be able to stop. Also a big thing is seeing the V* once I do it...I don't want to see it or smell it or anything like that! That's my biggest fear.


~Monica

[cloughie]

I was thinking the same thing. I thought back to the last time i was sick and knew that i wasn't scared. I knew there was a differene between sickness and my fear. I wish i could of held on to that thought for longer so i could of tried to work it out. The thought only lasted a second.

[silver]

Monica-


I know what you mean...I am also afraid that I won't be able to stop once I start and that it will keep going...I know that realistically that's impossible and that it has to stop eventually, but I fear that too.

[dreamer]

I hate the actual act of v*ing, but the bit I fear most is the build-up - the n*, the anxiety, the feeling of the n* getting worse and knowing "IT'S" going to happen,omg, that terrifies the hell out of me!


When I start to v*, it's almost a relief! When it's out, I just want rid of it. I have to be over the toilet so I can flush straight away. I hate the thought of having to use a bucket, basin, etc.


Oddly enough, I have no fear of choking, or death, or even losing control. It's just v*ing full stop that I dread. And of other people doing it.

[kate1966]

My fear is not being able to stop....as some of you have said....it's the fear of being out of control that scares me...and i HATE the feeling before you do it.....and course all of the above mentioned i hate too......it's everything about it!!!!!

[jennyleigh1975]

I think I am more afraid of the loss of control and afraid of "it" happening some where other than at home. This goes for me and my children/hubby. Like last week, when I was sick, I was feeling so bad driving the children home from school, but all I could think was PLEASE just let me get home and not barf in my van!!

[horselover]

Erm the thing that i hate about it, is knowing i AM going to v*. I just sit there waiting for it to happen and when it does i panic. like my mum says i should just relax and let it come out. but i cant i tense up, and it scares me because when im v* it feels like i could choke. i mean i no i couldnt choke, but thats what it feels like. it scares the hell out of me.

[suze]

My biggest fear is it happening in public or where others will see me. If I feel ill at home, I dread the thought that I might v* but it's nothing compared to the absolute panic I feel when I feel ill around other people.

[laurend]

my fear used to be the loss of control over my body. but after about a year and a half ago when my daughter had her first major stomach virus, my fear has been not being able to stop v*. i watched my daughter v* for almost 8 hours straight, only stopping in between for a few minutes, then after the 8 hours (and taking her to the hospital) she eventually slowed down to only every once in a while. but after i realized a person could get sick SOOOO many times in one little period of time, my phobia completely shot out of control. now my biggest fear is if i do get sick, i won't stop.

[nineuh]

I get the most anxiety about it when I'm actually in public. I'm so scared to do it in front of people. I think it comes from the time I actually did v* in 5th grade in front of the whole class. But I also freak out about it at home. I just get all tense and then I think I actually get so scared of having a panic attack that it causes a panic attack.