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[vincounet3]

Hi there!

First english is NOT my first language, so some sentences or words
might seem wrong to you ( I may be the only French candian guy on this
site ever! )

I don't know if you'll like it... but here is my story!

I'm from Quebec ( the eastern part of Canada...but you should know that right? lol )

and I'm a guy ( yeah like...maybe... 0.000001% of "declared" emetophobes... )

I can honestly say that 50% of my time is spent thinking about my fear

I'm always feeling like something is wrong with my stomach

But I can say that this fear has never stopped me of doing things I had to do

I'm proud of me for that

But it has stopped me of doing fun things I guess

I've never been drunk ( but I go to parties and have some beers )

I don't want to go in spinning things or roller coasters

I'm now afraid to fly ( but I,ve done it while I was young ) so I can't travel

And I have to sleep in my own home...

But I think that the worst thing for me is that I can'T be in a serious relationship with a girl

I've had girlfriends, but it doesn'T last because I cannot be trusted

The only person that is important for me is myself ( Am I sick? Will I
get sick? Should I go there ( because I'm surely gonna panic and make a
fool out of myself)? )

You know that kind of questions, I'm not reinventing the wheel here...

So I am the center of my attention, and it sucks big time

I want to wake up and be happy to live

Not that I'm depressed ( not at all)

But I want to live my life at its fullest

I guess maybe the best thing for us emetophobes me be to invest our time in something else than our own fear

I don't think that a none-phobic person can feel what it is to be afraid of going to school or to work

But I don't think that those people know how it feels when you've done something that you never thought you were able to do

I do think that those moments are better than any king of drugs, alcohol or else

It's a sense of freedom at its best

dont you think?

Take all the help that is around ( like this magnificient site )

And enjoy those moments

I'm naive enough to think that someday all my life will be made of those success

I don't want to be old and regret that this fear will have destroyed my opportunities

So I guess I have to learn to live with the bug!!!

Take care of yourselves ( but not too much... ) [img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]



Vincounet

[Jenneh]

interesting post.... especially the "take care of urself, but not too much" lol.... ur style of writing is very different, never heard neone say things lke tht before, oh well theres a first for evrything.


evrything u say is true, just thort i'd agree with you there... you have gotta lve for those happy moments and not let emet tke over ur life ,so u look bk and thats all ucan see.


Jen xxxx

[x hannah x]

WELCOME!