hi everyone
im feeling really guilty right now because i had to cancel some shifts at work. heres what happened:
this comming week i have three exams before summer (yay summer!!). i have one on monday (tomorrow), one on tuesday and one on thursday. however, i just called work to find out when i am working next week ( i am a dishwasher at a golf course. its glamourous, i know lol). anyway, they said i am working monday, wednesday and friday. friday is not a problem since i will be all done my exams but i absolutely could NOT work monday and wednesday. i called them back to get the phone numbers of other people who i could try and switch shifts with but my boss was just like "oh, its okay. dont worry about working. we'll find someone.,etc.". i just feel terribly (sp?)guilty that i had to cancel, especially because this is not the first time i havent been able to come into work. i dont want them to think i am not dependable and i definatly don't want them to hate me because they think i can never work. it almost would have been better if they had yelled at me instead of being so nice. im afraid that they were only pretending to be nice to cover up that they dont like me. it would absolutely kill me if i found out that the people at work didnt like me, because i like them all alot. i have a really low self-esteem so i am constantly worrying about these things.
so sorry for the long post. i just need re-assurance. i hope you all had a great weekend
-hayley xoxo