I rea the posts about gyln in big brother v*, and for some reason i wanted to see it?? and see what it was like. So i went on the BB site and sat with my headphones on and watched it. I don't know how i felt to be honest, but i hope this dosn't sound stupid, but i see v* as a feeling of relif, as when mikey was talking to him and saying come get it all up, i guess its true?? your body would feel more relaxed. I've come to relise the past few days what my fear is, its more the whole build up, waiting to see what happens, as most times when you v* the n* would go and you know its all gone. I don't know if im getting over this or what? i mean ok im still scared of it of course, but the one thing i also thought was when glyn had v* a few times and there was nothing left in his stomach, you could see him retching and it looked worse then bringing stuff up, so maybe not eating is a mistake im making because 1. I can still v* with or without food and 2. im more likey to catch a sv as my immune system won't be able to fight things off. I also know if i ever did feel that bad i have my anti-emetics, along with the hospital my mum works at, the nurses know my phobia and spoke to me and said even if my mum isn't with me i can go get an anti-emetic injection. But yes, if you havn't seen when glyn v*, it is rather graphic.