well, i'm new to this site, and everything i have read in these posts sounds soooo much like me. for example, last week, my boss came to work with a sv. he's a veterinarian, and i am his assistant. so, all day i was exposed to him. totally FREAKING OUT the whole 12 hour shift. i was so mad at him for coming to work sick, but he had no choice. we had several surgeries to do. i spent the day washing my hands. it's been 10 days, and noone else has been sick, so i think i'm in the clear.
since i can remember, i have feared v. i don't understand the nature of my fear, and i truly envy those who can v without a second thought. my boyfriend's got 2 kids, 11 and 13, and his philosophy on v is 'just do it and get it over with.' i haven't v in 20 years! can you believe it? the times i felt like it, i would fight it and fight it, doing wierd stuff like picking my face or pinching myself until the sensation passed. when someone i know is sick, i'll call them to 'see how they are doing', when really i'm just getting my own personal progress report on the sv, and what to expect if it should strike me.
i won't say that this fear is ruining my life, and i try to be realistic and tell myself that life has too much to offer other than worrying about v all the time. however, when the time comes, i want to run and hide. i shun those closest to me, and noone but you guys even know about this fear. most people would think it's a strange phobia, but i find it no more strange than being scared of spiders, which i am[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img].
guys, sometimes i feel like a real freak.
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