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[dutchess]

last night my fiancee and i went to the movies and i was a little anxious all day because i knew we were going. once we got there i was on the edge and it was hard. he was getting the tickets and i was standing there getting bad stomach pains. i wanted to run out so bad and just go home. Then the girl said there would only be front row seats left and asked us if we wanted to see the 7:40 show, which was only 40 minutes away and i agreed to see that one bc in my head i was saying it will give me time to run if i need to. then my fiancee decided to play air hockey and i was telling myself play it bc this is all in your head and your not getting sick. so i played and for that time i was feeling a little better but not 100% especially since i didnt win and i always win lol. anyway, we hung around the game room until it was time to go get seats and i was so far surviving. then we got into the theater and my tummy started again and i had no choice to go to the potty i covered that seat the best that i possibly could and i did do some # 2 but it wasnt d* but it wasnt exactly normal either so that set me off even more. i was def in a panic attack by then, but i was telling myself it was just bc i had myself so nervous. and i was also thinking,it could have been what i had for dinner. so what does everyone else think? dinner or anxiety? or even both? I did make it through the movie and it was good (persuit of happyness) but i was pretty shook up the entire time. to make it even worse the lady sitting next to me took a bath in that "old lady" perfume that reaks!! but anyway once we left i was still rather anxious and i crieda little when we got home bc i dont want to live my life in this fear of being afraid to go places. then i was watching tv and like always someone was v* on the tv at that point i was totally aggravated, turned the tv off and went to bed crying and all upset. today my tummy still hurts a little. is it bc im still not over last nights experiance??? i hate this!!!!!! I have a dr appt next week and im hoping he can give me something to help! but as far as today and feeling like this, i feel lousy ever morning..i dont know why, i used to be able to get up, have breakfast and be normal, but now the thought of food in the morning is horrible. so now i wonder, if it my normal morning tummy problem, is it still anxiety from last night or am i getting sick?? OH I HOPE NOT let me know what you think...thanks everyone! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

[domino2006]

Oh, you poor dear, I completely understand! Especially the part about the "old lady" pefume! When you're already feeling anxious and you have to smell something like that, it's the worst.

One thing I'm proud of you for is that you finished the movie, you didn't leave and go home. I have done those exact same things at the movies.

Your tummy trouble sounds exactly like anxiety. I can't count how many times I had the urge to "go" when I was feeling anxious. Diarrhea and even nausea itself are classic signs of anxiety. Anxiety can mask itself as the stomach virus very well and that doesn't mean you have contracted it. Viruses come on you fast and only last for about 24 hours so if you are still feeling like this or if you feel like this frequently it is anxiety and not illness. Also, you can try this test: eat a cracker or sip some water. If you feel the same nausea or if you feel better, it is anxiety. If you have a virus you will get immediate pain and discomfort from eating, not just nausea. Also try some self talk. Even if you don't believe yourself, say this: "I don't have a virus. I am okay. This is anxiety." Even if it doesn't go away right away, keep telling yourself and chances are it will make you feel better.&nbsp ;

What you might be experiencing also is IBS (irritable bowel syndrome). It is quite common and there are prescription drugs that help control it, although my doctors have insisted that 1. taking fiber 2. exercise and 3. stress management are the best ways to beat it. Several years ago I was like you all the time, and with some diet modifications it has gotten much better. Be very honest with your doctor, share all of your symptoms and try to get all the tests you think you might need to rule out other problems.

Blessings!

Steph

[susie_q]

I know exactly how you feel, and it sounds like that nasty old anxiety that puts a hold on us. I get anxious everytime I know I am going someplace, even hours before. Then, when I actually go, it gets worse, because I even get more anxious, which means n*. When I am so anxious for so long, it can take more than a day to get over it because I start worrying that maybe this is the time I am really sick, but guess what, it never is. I usually have some sort of n* more often than not, and I have not v* for 32 years now (knock on wood).


Just tell yourself you are okay and you are not sick. It is just the anxiety that haswon again. I know it is easier said than done, but give it a try. I wish I could just be normal and not have this fear taking control of me.


Have a Happy and Relaxing New Years!

[dutchess]

thanks domino and susie...I am always feeling n*..and it really is awful, but i keep telling myself i am okay and so on, especially since i just started a new job and i really like it, i dont want to loose this one like the others over this fear! as far as the IBS i know i do have that, but im not on anything for it, my doc had me taking mineral oil at one point and it was nasty!!! i also took an antiobiotic and that at the same time on an empty stomach (STUPID ME) and i did get sick


, i will never do that again, but since then i have not even looked at the mineral oil bottle, that stuff should be illegal lol. anyway..im still anxious unfortunatly, but i just have to keep on fighting. thanks for the support and encouraging words..it means a lot to me.. Hope you're having a good new year so far!! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[domino2006]

Hi dutchess,

Thanks! It's almost the new year here but not quite.
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About the mineral oil, I'd say that is the wrong thing to take for IBS. If nothing else, try fiber. My doctor suggested I try the powdered stuff you mix into water. I have been taking the caplets and they are pretty easy to take. Anything that helps regulate the contractions in the digestive tract is what you want. Mineral oil sounds like it would cause more diarrhea, though. I also take ginger regularly and it helps stave off nausea. I've also taken garlic capsules with an enteric coating so that you can't taste them. They have healing properties for the digestive system. I've lowered my incidence of nausea dramatically with these steps.

Blessings, and you are not alone, remember that!

[susie_q]

I hope you are feeling better, I know what it's like to feel n* all the time, but we always end up being okay. I can't believe your doctor told you to take mineral oil. Ask him to prescribe Zelnorm. It is a fairly new drug for IBS and it really works. As long as your IBS symptoms are mostly constipation and not d*.