I fear it even though I know it's not that bad

[mooki]

I haven't done it since I was a kid. But when I did. I never thought it was terrible. I didn't think much of anything about it really. I still remember what it felt like and know it's not that awful. My first time I remembered doing it, I was maybe 8 years old. I knew something was wrong with my stomach and the school nurse called my dad to come pick me up. I felt weird on the way home and while walking up to the apartment I got a strange sensation I'd never experienced and had no idea was happening to me. It felt like something ominous and it was an almost warm sensation coming up. I didn't know what was happening, but I knew something was about to happen. For some reason I just started running, I don't know what I was running to or from and then bleeeeesh...I decorated the walkway with last night's pizza. I looked up my dad and he was shaking his head with a mix of pity and disbelief. I went upstairs and within a couple minutes did it again, I think on the floor of the living room. My dad then told me to stay in the bathroom next to the toilet. I had diarrhea too I think. I had noro. That was my first experience I could remember. My mom said I vomited a lot as a baby but obviously I have no recollection of that. I caught noro two more times within that same winter as a horrible epidemic was going around my school. The subsequent times I did it, I don't remember fearing it.

The buildup of course is awful, but doing it is not the big deal we make it into. The worse thing about doing it would be in public because you'd have to deal with the embarrassment of people seeing you. But if it's in private in your bathroom, there's nothing to fear about it. Yet even though I realize this, I'm still terrified.

[Keeley]

I'm sorta the same way. I got tummy sick last summer while at my dads. In all honesty, the actual tummy sick wasnt that bad. What i hated was the build up that led to it

[mooki]

"Tummy sick?" LOL, that has the be the most girly word for vomit I've heard yet.

[afraid213]

probably the way your dad treted you when you v* made you have this phobia...i remember when i v* last....my mom was yelling in the living room complaining that i had v*......everytime i feel sick, i remember my mom....it makes me mad that words can really do that much to us...ugh.....

[lyla22]

Mooki, that's interesting that you say you were a sicky baby- I wonder if a lot of other sufferers were too. My mum said I would puke every Friday night for no apparent reason as a baby! I had some really nasty stomach bugs when I was younger and that's partly why I am so scared.

But all this wasn't helped by the fact that my paralyzed uncle (more like a younger brother really) used to vomit blood and have convulsions and my younger brother used to choke all the time, and I was separated from my Mum because I was sick with infections at different times because my younger brother was very poorly and it would risk him getting ill!

The only stomach bug I've had in the last 4 years wasn't terrible, I was sick once and was pleased to lose a little weight! but I'm still terrified of the really nasty, long infections