I just can't cope with this anymore.

[Tasha'93]

So, I've felt quite unwell today, a little bit sick and just generally quite 'off', but I thought to myself 'don't panic, the feeling will pass' (but it didn't). About half an hour ago my sister told me she's just had diarrhea and didn't feel great which instantly made me really upset, as I also haven't felt so good today, immedietly I'm thinking we both have a stomach bug I just started crying and shaking when all the while my sister is just shrugging it off as though she's fine. I felt so silly getting upset when it was her that had the d* but I just couldn't help it. We were getting ready to go out and I just couldn't face it, I was too upset. I can't take this anymore, it's taking over me and my life. The worst part is everyone in my family just stood there looking at me as if I was the most pathetic thing they'd seen and I'm tired of people seeing me as the freak and hypocondriac of the house. I just want it to end :/

[harmonygirl72]

Aw, I am sorry this happened to you! You will be okay, I promise. Are you getting any therapy currently?

[Tasha'93]

Aw, I am sorry this happened to you! You will be okay, I promise. Are you getting any therapy currently?

Thanks, but I don't know because I feel really ill - I've just had a two session introductory into CBT and I'm starting my proper CBT at the start of July. I don't want to put it down before its even started but my phobia is that strong and just out of control that I'm not sure It will even help me.

[orton99]

Hey Tash, really sorry to hear that you're struggling right now, but please don't give up on the therapy before you've even started as this is how you'll get better. I know it must seem overwhelming right now, but the whole approach of CBT is to break it down into smaller, manageable steps so what may look like the marathon of the phobia is cut down into one step at a time. Have you seen the stickied thread in Treatments by Avath? She talks about how her treatment worked in that every individual thing she did took her a little step further away from her lowest point.

Something that's helped me recently has been The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook by Edmund Bourne (check out Amazon), which takes the view that phobias have a multitude of causes, so a multitude of possible solutions. In short, you'll see that there are lots of things you could be doing over the next few weeks to ease your anxiety and give you something else to think about.

I'm unfortunately about to go out for the evening soon and will be out all day tomorrow, but if you still feel stressed on Sunday shall we finally arrange that chat room meet-up? I'll see what I can do to make you feel better.

But please don't give up, okay?

[rachel1989]

Hey!

Oh no! I am so sorry this is happening to you. But, what Orton99 said above is spot on.
For a temporary solution to being upset- you really would have been ill by now if it was a bug- it sounds like a small one but if it was going to get worse, it would have by now. so try not to worry xx

[Tasha'93]

I'm definitely not about to give up on therapy, I've been waiting too long for it to do that, I'm just afraid ill never get better or over come this. I feel stuck in one spot right now.

Thanks for the book suggestion, I'll have a look for that in a minute.

It's just really draining at the moment and feel as my dad says 'not normal' so I don't know what to think. I suppose I'm just fed up of no one getting it and thinking I'm making an unnessacery drama.

That's fine, sunday it is. I'll message you in the morning. Thanks Andrew.

[orton99]

Fine, see you then!

[Tasha'93]

Hey!

Oh no! I am so sorry this is happening to you. But, what Orton99 said above is spot on.
For a temporary solution to being upset- you really would have been ill by now if it was a bug- it sounds like a small one but if it was going to get worse, it would have by now. so try not to worry xx

Maybe Rachel. I'm not eating anything until tomorrow though, I know that. My sister hasn't been sick and had d* around an hour and a half ago now so you might be right. Thankyou x

[emmalinda]

that d* could be from anything. i always get those ill sickly feelings in my stomach and they stress the hell out of me. they always urn out to be nothing. everyone else is right. if it was gonna get worse it would of by now. your just having one of those 'bad emet days.' hang in there and do things to take your mind of it. go or walk or watch a bit of tv, listen to some music etc

[Tasha'93]

I guess. I've felt really sickly all weekend though, I'm like waiting for something to happen, I don't want to be like this anymore :/ thanks for your concern.

[lauren37]

i know exactly how you feel i am so done also. its so life controlling and my parents just DONT get it! hope you feel better soon u will probably be fine

[emmalinda]

i can relate so well. hang in there you'll be fine.

[Tasha'93]

Thankyou to the two posters above x