Hi guys! I hope you're all good!
So i was just writing a response in the "What triggered your emet"-thread and seeing my own words in text really made me think. I'll tell you:
What i can recall as the event that triggered my phobia was when i was rooming with my sister. She was always making a lot of noise during the nights (like talking and humming and stuff, haha) so had trouble sleeping when she was in the room (bummer sharing rooms with her hahah!) so i was awake during the night. Around 4 or something she just wakes up and gags and burps and v*s really loudly. For some people it just kind of whooshes out without a sound but she was really really loud and made every sound possible which is what i, up til this point, have thought triggered my phobia since it was so extreme and i wasn't expecting it.
Anyway, later the same night (i was still in the room!) she v*s again. Exact same procedure, she's asleep, wakes up, v*s in the most disgusting way possible, with me literally 4 feet away from her. And this is where it gets weird because i can't recall i was scared or nervous or anxious or anything like that. It was more like "oh god why are you v*ing in here this is my room too!!".
I think that's really weird. I was totally freaked out the first time she did it, and the second time i was completely calm and annoyed with her if anything. Why wasn't i scared? Can someone expain that?