I wonder what other people will say, but I sometimes think "What is it that I'm afraid of about v*?"


Normal people will say things like "It won't kill you, you'll survive" and for most people, it is just a fact of life that they might be sick. It's not like that to me, and I'm sure other emets. A lot of therapists have asked if I am afraid that someone who isv* will die, but it's not that. No one can understand just how horrible v* is,as a fear it is worse than dying or anything. I think this is an overwhelming feeling that is common in phobias unfortunately.


One art therapist had an interesting psychoanalytic theorythat I was really afraid of things, such as emotions, coming out of people (like the v*)! Could be, I guess. It's a bit like when someone is really upset and hysterical and you think they might never stop crying. I am more afraid of other people, especially my Mum getting ill, although obviously it's not something I want to do either. A lot of my anxieties have been about protecting her from germs and bugs. (and things that upset or distress her perhaps?)