I feel like this phobia changes the way I cope with things. Everytime
it evolves to something better or worse. Before I used to get upset and
then scratch myself..now when I get upset I make myself nauseous. It's
different from a panic attack, infact my heart is just fine.

I starts with my stomach, then I feel it just go nuts, and then my head
gets light-heated. It's like butterflys in my stomach feeling, but
not...like I'm about to perform in a play.

The other day, I got so upset over a situation (totally unrelated to
emet) and my stomach was like a roller. I retched a bit and that was
all that happened. This was happening in the car where I am prone to
motion sickness *written in Triump and Pitfall forum*. Now it could of
been a combination, but I was a big wholesale store, and sometimes big
spaces bug me out, so I got nervous, instead of me getting anxious the
stomach thing started, with the whole light-headedness and my stomach
just jumping up and down. Then afterwards there was an ache in my
stomach and my mouth was dry.



Now I'm more anxious of this happening and making me sick then actually
being sick. How odd is that? It's like I'm upset over not being able to
control this mechanism. It's gotten the point where I don't care about
the act of getting sick. I just want to stop myself from getting so
emotionally messed up that I get sick.