I keep trying to go out and do things, but I don't feel brave for trying. I can't enjoy them at all because all I can think about is my fear of throwing up. I went to apply for a stupid part time job today but got so anxious that I had to leave before I could finish filling out the sheet. It's just so discouraging and I don't know what to do and nobody I know gets it or knows how to help me and all I want is to just stop thinking about it. It's so exhausting and I can't even get a break from it when I sleep because I dream about it. I just want to get over it.