Last night I had this terrible dream that all my friends and family had come down witha sv*. I woke up feeling very n* and it was terrible. I went back to sleep and woke up at around 12, had some breakfast, then I just had a very mild episode of d*. I don't feel exactly great and yesterday I was feeling pretty n*, (then again - i was pretty much driving around in a car ALL day). But today I feel a bit better and i'm just SO sick of this. It seems like no matter where I go, or what I do, I can't let go of this. I'm so afraid i'm going to have another episode of d* soon, I want to go on a run but I can't because I'm afraid I might get s* or have d* ... I hate this so much! I just wish I could have someone to talk to ..