Hi everyone, I am new here and am still in shock knowing that there are actually people out there that have this same fear and struggle with it as I have been doing for years. Ok The last time I threw up I was like 8 years old and I am now 18. I don't really know how I developed this fear it is almost like one day i was fine with it and the next there was know way I could tolerate it. I always had these periods in my life where I didn't really want to go anywhere or do anything because I am scared that I may feel sick and want to go home and start topanic thinking I may vomit. Everything was actually going great for about 3 years of my life I was out every day not worrying about if I would be sick or not (not that I would have let myself vomit, I was still scared of it, but had no worries) I still hated hearing or seeing someone vomit and would actually run away if someone said they felt sick. Then last Year I got pregnant, January of 2005, I had very little morning sickness, it wasn't bad at all and it was maybe once a week. Then in June my baby had died So labour had to be induced and I had to deliver. I managed to make it through labour without vomiting although i came very very close. but afterwards I went into post partum depression and didn't get help for it and it turned into clinical depression, I had nausea everyday and every minute it was so exhausting, still to this day I have no idea what it was from and I just feel really sad thinking about it because it just brings back such familiar feelings. This is over a year later and am being treated for my depression and was diagnosed with anorexia and I am well on my way with having that under control but yet I still have the nausea, mind you it is not as bad or even close to what it used to be, but know one understand what causes it. I am now in another one of those periods in my life where I avoid doing things with the fear that I may get sick. It is truly exhausting and sometimes I get to the point where I just wish I could throw up but then I get really scared because I don't want to. I just want to go back to living my life to the fullest and stay vomit free and I am really not to sure how I came out of this every other time and I was just wondering if there is anyone who was this bad like not wanting to leave there house due to the worry and than got better?? how was this possible. I am still finding my self very depressed due to losing my child and now the anorexia is that a possible reason to the nausea? I have horrible panic attacks when I think I may vomit and I try to resist taking anything for as long as I can but as soon as I gag I take a gravol and it has been working great so far.... any suggestions on what to do about the anxiety of being sick???[img]smileys/smilies_05.gif[/img]