Hi.. i used to post here, only a few times and it was more thana year ago. But recently something changed my emetophobia (for the better) and i wanted to share my story. Well.. when i was little i got sick a lot, i probably got a stomach bug almost every winter. I didnt start becoming afraid thoughuntil i was 12 (i'm 15 now) and one summer on an 8 hour trip to the beach, we pulled over at a wal-mart and my little brother v*ed all over the parking lot. I was MORTIFIED! My emetophobia became so horrible for the next year and a half to come. I had panic attacks and the like and was terrified of touching doorknobs or being near people at all. Well it got a little better i guess when i was 14, but it was still pretty bad. Recently, every single night for these past few months of winter i've layed in my bed at night just praying that i would fall asleep, because the longer i lied awake, the more sick i would make myself feel. Well... about a week anda half ago i went to bed normally (normally includes freaking out about having a stomach bug) and i was especially afraid i was going to v* because i had a bad cold and could feel mucus running down my throat. ((these next parts might be a little graphic.. just to let you know )) Well i woke up at 2am and had horrible d*. If it had been the middle of the day i would have been freaking out, but i was half asleep and went back to bed. I woke up about two hours later and all i remember was running to my mom's room yelling "OMG I'M GOING TO THROW UPPPP" and then i just kneeled down on the bathroom floor and it happened! I was in complete shock. I went back to my bathroom and my dad said i was like groaning and yelling "I CAN'T BELIEVE I V*ED... OH MY GOSH!" Well it happened 10 more times that night. I guess i had a pretty bad bug. But it really did cure me. I'm no longer afraidof myself v*ing. I'm just never going to eat cheesecake again, ew the thought of it just makes me feel sick. (it wasthe last thing i ate before i got sick).I have gotten better at watching other peoplev* by watching medical shows like house.. i want to be a pediatric oncology nurse, and for that job i'm definitely going to have to get over my fear of seeing others do it, but i'm confident that i can do it now [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]





Wow, sorry that was so long but it just feels nice to get all of my thoughts out to people who actually understand and don't think i'm crazy