I wonder if this is just me, or if others go through it, too....

My phobia tends to go in phases. It ebbs and flows. I can be fine for months, eating and sleeping normally, not thinking about v* thousands of times a day, etc....and then, all of a sudden...WHAM! I'm reduced to a sniveling MESS. I've started a blog, hoping to talk my way through it, or figure out what triggers the feeling. Does anyone else have phases like that?

Also, does anyone else find that, sometimes, when the worst occurs and someone gets a sv* or fp* or the flu....do you thik afterwards that all your fear was for naught, and it wasn't all THAT bad? Last time my son got s***, it was fp. He v* like 7 times in four hours. The last three times, I even managed to stay in the room while he did it, and managed to clean up. For a while after that (once I knew it wasn't contagious, of course), I felt silly for all my panic. But then, now that flu season is here, and I hear all these horror stories at work, I am all panicked again, even though, intellectually, I KNOW that the next time, it still won't be as bad as my fear.

I hope I'm explaining myself coherently LOL...I just really don't know how to express it.

Stephanie