So i am gonna be 28 this year and i have been married over 3 yrs very happily. We both have pretty good careers. The absolute only thing that stands in my way of having children is this stupid phobia. I feel like its winning over the battle everyday. I watch these shows like deliver me on discovery health and i see other people with thier babies and i feel the clock ticking.I cry when i see a mother with her new baby.. *sigh*
I had really wanted to have my first baby before i was 30 which i know can still work but i freak out... the v* and n* with pregnancy and then the delivery and then taking care of a child when they are sick.. its seriously the only reason i keep saying no. Honestly i think i might just keep postponing it cuz of this dumb phobia and then it will be too late...

thanks for listening [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]