I know there are a lot of emets who are terrified and embarrassed about v*ing in public, or having others see them v*, etc.

But I'm wondering if anyone else is like me, and is the complete opposite?

Many times when I'm feeling so n* that I really just wish I could let go of the fear and just v* already, I kind of imagine an "ideal" (I suppose) setting for me to be v*ing and it usually happens like this:

I'm at a hospital, with a lot of nurses surrounding me, some of them holding me, and I'm leaning over a toilet hyperventilating. They keep encouraging me and shouting at me that it's OK, it's just normal, that I can do it, there's nothing wrong with v*ing. I of course keep refusing and saying No, I can't do it, it's too frightening. But eventually I finally cave in to their pressure and just v* already.

It's pretty dramatic, and strange, but it's what I imagine. I guess I'd just want others to make as big of a deal out of me being sick as I do. [img]smileys/smilies_05.gif[/img]