Just curious...are you mostly afraid of yourself v*ing or others v*ing...or both? For me, it's mostly other people. I feel like I can mostly control when I will v*, but I have no control over others. It's the sound, the smell, the sight...ugh. I freak out if anybody even says that they don't feel well, I'm outta there! I mostly can't stand the sound. I automatically run away and cover my ears.