Hi Everyone!
I'm new to this forum and am so glad that I found it! I have had this phobia since I was 16 years old and I am now 40 years old. I've learned how to breathe through panic attacks, pace and deal with it, but like most of us I have good days and bad days. Unfortunately, it's almost flu season again, so...here we go. I have a loving and supportive husband who knows but I don't think really understands the extent of my phobia. Because I'm 40, the subject of children comes up alot...I'm just so afraid. I feel caught between many difference emotions about it. I love children and used to dream of having 3 or 4. However, the year I turned sixteen, my whole life changed...and not for the better. I'm just so afraid of everything that comes with children...first of all, morning sickness and then down the road when the children get sick...I just don't know if I can handle it. I also am afraid of being a mother who passes this horrible phobia on to her children...I often say I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I'm also torn because I don't want to get to the end of my life and regret not having had children. I'm also afraid of losing my husband over this. Wow, that's alot of "I'm also afraid's". I'd love to hear from any of you who have children or who have faced this situation. Thank you for this website! I plan to visit often. It makes a world of difference having a place to go where people understand.
MrsGrady