i have an excellent psychologist. he specialises in trauma and anxiety. this phobia (amongst my other disorders) is killing me. it is ruining my life. we have decided something needs to be done about it to get past it.

he has suggested vomiting. he has consulted my gp and they are arranging to get some sort of emetic for me. i am petrified. and i just read the faq: do you need to vomit to be cured?. the answer was no. so now i am terrified that my psychologist is wrong and that vomiting really is as terrifying as i think it is and that if i do it, my life will become so bad that i will have to kill myself
(not a threat of suicide - just a big fear in my mind).
has anyone vomited - and found it survivable?