I made another thread earlier about my experience with
exposure therapy and how that has made my anxiety go away
and I'm on 30mg a day of medication which is awesome
since I was on 1000mg just a few months ago.

I know different therapies work for different, but I just
felt that after having this for 15 years that I had to
either face it or run from it for the rest of my life. So
I did exposure therapy and spent 2 days with doctors. It
was monitored and done at the regular hospital. They
gave me syrup of ipecac and I just happened to have
caught the flu and I was sick for 2 days straight.

I'm not going to lie, it was horrible. It was hard to
get through and I can't really explain it, either then
it's horrible. But the next week I found that my anxiety
has disappeared and I no longer even think about v*. The
following week I ate something bad and v* and I just
looked at it and flushed the toilet then I went into the
kitchen and ate more food. I don't care about v*
anymore. I no longer dwell about it and for the first
time in my life I feel that I'm in control.

It's totally changed my life around. My mom thinks that
Jesus saved me from all her prayers and maybe he
did...but all I can say is that in those 15 years I
experienced some horrible parts of anxiety and anti-
depressants. Spent many nights praying for something to
kill me cause I couldn't bring myself to kill myself. It
was horrible and the last few years I've pushed away my
friends and family and I'm grateful they are still here
for me and they see a huge change in me.

I know exposure therapy is an extreme for a phobia like
this...but anyone who's talked to me on here can probably
tell you how I let this phobia basically run my entire
life.

It feels good to be anxiety free and I know without a
doubt I will never return to my old lifestyle and I'm
going to do anything I can to help anyone on this site.
And I'm not trying to be cheesy..but if I did it, you all
can too =)