i am 15 and i have had emet for almost 3 years now. when i was 12.5 yrs old i had a terrible experience at thanksgiving dinner. right after i ate i went to my room to use my inahler cause my asthma was acting up and I immediately starting puking. i was throwing up for a good 15 minutes and i could not breathe. i was so scared that i was going to die. my mom was holding my hair back and telling me i was going to be alright. i was bawling and screaming that i didnt want to die. i couldnt breathe no matter what i tried to do. when i was 14.5 i was diagnosed with anxiety. i have at least 2 anxiety attacks a day over my fear of puking, (i have chronic stomach aches), and my OCD. My ocd is veryyyy bad. I have trained myself to control my puke and i havent puked since that day. i have puked in my mouth many times but i always swallow it. my doctor told me this is bad because all the acid coming up with my puke needs to come OUT not back IN. i know i need to get over this fear but i just cant. i had EGD surgery done yesterday at the hospital and they stuck a camera down my throat and took biopsies of my chest/stomach lining and esophagus. the air they pumped into my stomach is still there a little bit today and its making me nauseous. i am so scared that i am going to vomit and i really dont know what to do. i only have one other friend that has this phobia, but i have no one else to talk to....
can someone please help me through this...
i am so scared...