Hi, my name is Joelle and I'm 22 years old. I first became aware of my fear at a real young age. When I was like 6 years old I shared a bed with my brother and I woke up one night to him throwing up in the bed and I will never forget how much I screamed and cried about it. From that day on I would somehow find ways to stay away from him and I even remember sleeping under the covers at the bottom of the bed. If I saw someone so much hold their stomach I would hide and freak out.

When i was 8 I had gotten the flu and I remember throwing up in the living room. It was the worst feeling in the world. From that day on, I did everything I could to not do it. And i have been pretty excellent at it. But one thing I couldnt control was my panic. My friends think its funny and will fake gag around me. Everytime I start to panic and usually have to leave the room. This past fall i had gotten the flu and it was the first time I had gotten sick since my experience when i was 8. I thought I was going to die and panicked throughout the whole week. I didnt want to take my meds or eat anything because I thought I would just get sick again.

Ive been pretty okay at functioning around my fear but somedays is harder than others. As everyone probably knows.


well thats the condense of my story.
nice to meet everyone. I hope this forum helps me and I can help with others.

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