Hi, I'm new here. I make a living as a doctor. Scary but true. I feel like I have channeled my phobia into this - I thought I might get better if I desensitized myself- and I chose a field where most people v*. I learned that I don't fear it as much in a controlled setting, like the hospital. It's the surprise v* that occur in personal life of which I am most terrified. Also, I have the luxury of politely leaving the room and asking a nurse or nurse's aide to help out. Seeing this at work has not at all lessened my fear at home.