Hello everybody!
I'm a new member in this site, and i have no idea where to begin.
I honestly thought that i was the only person in the world who suffered from this phobia. It started when i was a little girl, roughly 4 maybe 5 years old. I got a stomach bug horribly and i remember it play by play to this day. I couldn't breathe and it scared the crap out of me, i literally thought i was going to die. So i stopped eating, my parents couldn't get me to eat to save anyone's life! BUT i started eating again.

Then about 3 years ago, i had recently gotten my heart broken by a guy and i thought the only way i could stop thinking about him, and "numb" the pain was by drinking. So that's what i started doing. It worked for a while, and then one night, he decides to come visit me, to give me closure. I drank so much and i couldn't handle my liquor anymore. After that night, i quit drinking.

Later on that year, i had a pregnancy scare and all i could think about is morning sickness. I didn't want to tell my parents, so i kept it inside thinking i was without taking a test. Eventually i broke down and told my mom, come to find out i wasn't.
My anxiety started horribly after that, i couldn't eat, i couldn't sleep, anytime i did eat i would feel nauseated. Found out a month later, i have acid reflux disease. I started taking medication, and it seemed as if after so long the pills would stop working, then i come to find out i'm lactose intolerant.

For the past year and a half every single day of my life i'm completely nauseated, i have panic attacks at least 4 nights out of the week. I'm in a relationship, and i'm getting to the point to where i can't hardly see my boyfriend because of my phobia. As soon as i think about leaving to go some place, i automatically think "what do i do if i get sick?" "nobody is near me, in case i need help" and when it comes to visiting my boyfriend i think the same exact things. This phobia is effecting the way i live, my ability to drive. I'm terrified of blacking out while driving from being nauseous. I can't work, attend college. Schooling has to be done online. I can't go into crowded places of the fear of someone getting sick. I can't see it, smell it, hear it, NOTHING, I can't even sleep in my bedroom anymore. I have to sleep on the couch and no matter how cold it is, i have to have a fan on high at all times. This phobia is really taking over my life. Sorry for blabbing on and on, but i needed to get it off of my chest, Emetophobia doesn't exist to the people i'm surrounded by.

If anyone wants to share any stories with me, or give me any advice to help me get over this, or at least cope. Please let me know. I'd appreciate it.