I have read a certain post and i feel cheated and now even more insecure than i did before.I have had emet since i was 6 and i am now 25...I last vomited when i was 8 years old.I suppose i have always really really hoped and believed that when i was to be sick again (which will probably be sooner rather than later) that after actually V* I would maybe feel that it wasn't worth worrying about for all these years...but as the person in the post has said...after actually getting sick while camping,she still feels just as afraid...and other posts answering her also said,that we its not the case to feel better about V* after actually doing it.My cognitive behaviour therepist also believes that i will not be so worried afterwards...so i just thought i would get lucky.I am now writing this with tears rolling down my face,because its dawned on me that i will have this phobia forever.I am so horendously depressed,i want to leave this world now,i don't want to carry on anymore.