I have been a lurker for some time now so I appreciate all of the posts I've read and have been able to relate to.
I am a mom to a 2.5 yr old son. I have been with my husband for over 10 yrs and have always been emetophobic. In college when we were together, everyone always knew I hated v* so in drunk situations I was always on edge and always made sure I didn't drink too much to lose that control. It was part of my nature - but it didn't consume me. I think when I became a mom and had a little walking person who I could not control what he put in his mouth at all times/that his hands were totally clean before he ate anything, etc started to make this phobia worse. And then at 13 months, he started to exhibit signs of food allergies and was randomly v* for 2+ months until they were all diagnosed. Now I am constantly on edge with worrying about not only catching a sv but also eating something that is going to make him sick. It drive my husband nuts and I can only imagine what it's like for him to live with me like this. It is on my mind 24/7 so I am constantly asking - did you wash his hands before he ate? Did you make sure this didn't have dairy, egg, etc in it? We are getting so frustrated with eachother because I think my constant nagging drives him nuts which leads him to not even want to answer my questions which then makes my anxiety worse. Does anyone else deal with this? It seems like so many spouses on here are either supportive or at least not trying to make the phobia worse for them. Like I said, I've always been this way - but way back when it was a quirky part of my nature - now it seems like it's consumed me and I can't relax. He is constantly telling me I need a shrink or medication and that his attitude is not contributing to making this worse for me