Really struggling...

[jasminemarie]

My step-sister (who is a recovering emet) was my one source of support, speaking to me by phone, text, facebook etc numerous days every day to calm me down, for the last year when my emet has been taking over my life.

Yesterday, she flew from the UK to Australia to start her new life with her partner. I am gutted to be losing, but my anxiety has just risen ten fold because i don't know how i'm going to manage without her, and am convinced that her leaving is going to spark me getting s*.

The whole of today Ive been feeling really off and n* on and off, and freaking out loads and she is out of contact. Apart from this forum, it feels like I have no one left to understand or help.

I dont know what to do

Also, is what i am experiencing an anxiety symptom? My stomach feels like it is an inflating balloon and is too big. It feels uncomfortable and like i need to push it out of my body. Its really freaking me out cause I feel like today is going to be the day, and what if this is it? Its not painful, just very uncomfortable and I feel like i have to push my stomach and move my stomach muscles side to side (sounds weird, hope that makes sense). I am just really freaking out because I don't know how to manage this symptom