i dont now why but for a few days ive been really down and depressed about my whole emet situation. My parents have been nagging me because they want me to get hypnotised. But im petrifed of the thought of not not being aware of what im doing or thinking&today my boyfriend said something that really made me feel crappy....most of my friends know that i have this 'phobia of s*' and some of mine&his friends seem to make fun alot, so this is what happend, i was with my boyfriend and two of his mates when one of them started making g* noices, obv i flinched and i turned to my boyfriend and said 'i think i might get hypnotised' so he replied 'really, you should' so i said 'i might but im scared' and he replys with 'ill get like 4 crates of beer' so i was like 'what?' all confused and he replys with 'i can actualy drink without it affecting you'....i nearly cried i mean the wave of guilt rushed over my entire body, i know he didnt mean it and we've talked about it but i cant help but feeling like im holding him back, he knows i would give anything not to have emet and i now the effect it has on my friends and family,it just reminded me on how much i can hold someone back bcause of my nervousness,panic&anxiety. it sucks feeling this way but i cant help it

sorry for any spelling mistakes, im to tired to check hehe(a)


has anybody else felt like this ??
-were they just want to curl up in bed for days??