I need to learn to let go of the guilt and anger that I get along with this phobia. The guilt of not being able to be more help/support to my kids when they are sick. The guilt I feel when I want to run and hide from them. Frustration at not being able to do anything about it. I didn't ask for this phobia. I would give almost anything to be rid of it. But, honestly I can't see being ever free from it.

The anger I get realizing how many hours and days I have wasted living in fear. Time I will never get back. Every Christmas, every Thanksgiving, ruined by anxiety. Fear of becoming ill. Not only myself, but someone else getting sick.

I have come along way and I don't live every day in anxiety, but when I read these forums my heart goes out to everyone. It can be so debilitating and miserable to live with.