I posted in the private forum then saw this one and thought I'd put myself out there twice in case one got more responses.
I'm in full panic mode. I went to check on my 6yo as I was going to bed and found him clutching his stomach and moaning in his sleep. I try to talk to my husband but he just doesn't get it and thinks by telling me "you'll be fine" that somehow it will take a phobia away?? He isn't afraid of anything, so I know he just doesn't get it.
I can barely stand being in the same house when my son is sick, and it takes an insane amount of will to hold him and comfort him, but more often than not if he starts looking green I banish him to his room with a bucket to ride it out by himself. I'm his mom! I should be there comforting him!! My mom used to hold my hair...and it takes all that's in me not to run out the front door screaming. I feel like a terrible mom!!!
I'm even more terrified of my 2yo at this point. My 6yo I can hand a bucket, and as bad as it is, make him fend for himself...but the two year old is unstoppable and you never know when or where it might happen. I'm seriously terrified of my kids and in full on panic mode at this point. I've tried in the past to have my husband stay home from work during these awful times, but he doesn't get it and thinks I should be able to handle it on my own and refuses to help me. I'm on my own. No one gets it!! I feel like a terrible mother for not being able to comfort my kids, not to mention the constant fear, panic and stress going on inside of me at every moment. It's 1:30 am and I'm exhausted but I'm too terrified to sleep. My son has a history of doing it in his sleep. It's terrible!!! I feel so awful and alone. Does anyone have anything???



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