im freaking out!

i'm just trying to keep my kids separated.

my oldest is wearing mask & gloves. I'm wearing mask & gloves.

I want to hug my child, give him love, but I can't. I am so afraid. I feel like a HORRIBLE mother..
The dread, the fear, the sv**

Where is there so many damn nasty people in this world?

OH my god, I'm freaking out! he's asleep right now on the couch as I'm sitting in the recliner wondering and worrying.

Yes, try not to worry? It's so freakin hard. This..is..it! I posted a couple of days ago how i could feel like i'm going to v** soon or the future... and this happens. I know i dont believe in that crap, but it's just....here. Help!