Last weekend, I was scrolling mindlessly through Tumblr, when I see that my friend had reblogged one of her own posts from her blog I didn't know about. I already knew she was trying to loose weight, and her post was just about that. I looked at her secret blog, and immediately I saw the sub-title of the blog. "Survivour of BULIMIA NERVOSA". Oh. My. God. WHY. WHY. WHY. WHY. WHY. I know she has been through a load of stuff including suicide (she's 15, but over it now), but bulimia is probably the worst thing my friend could be doing right now. (I know that sounds horrifically selfish, but it's pretty much the truth). She has pretty much recovered from all of her pevious problems, and I'm still suffering with a load of stuff I have been battling for ages. THIS JUST MAKES IT WORSE. Now I have to avoid going out with my friends saying I'm ill because I don't want to be near her, and I've even missed school because of it. I just don't understand. I know it's not something easy for her and I know I can't catch anything from her, but it is just tipping me over the edge, and I don't know what to do!! I'm even becoming this weird type of anorexic that I have been gradually becoming ever since the emet came along, but now it's full on not wanting to eat. I'm losing a load of weight and I'm already very underweight. She doesn't know it is causing me so much trouble, and I know she can't help it but neither can I and I can't explain it really. I don't know when she is 'doing it', so I'm just in fear every time I see her. Sorry I'm just having a serious rant now.