I was doing so well.

[jadeshine]

I'm sorry if my thoughts sound scrambled, but that's how my brain is right now. I've barely even been thinking about the phobia for the last couple of weeks. I haven't been on the forum for probably four days when I used to check it multiple times daily. I haven't had a panic attack in so long, but tonight one hit me. I guess I'm under a lot of stress because I just learned that I have to move four hours away by Saturday. I'm scared I was exposed because I was at the emergency room with my girlfriend the other day and I only washed my hands one time. I haven't been washing my hands as much as I used to, and I've run out of my Zylast sanitizer. My panic attack started when I went to the gas station just a bit ago and got really depersonalized and felt so out of it (which I get a lot from anxiety, but it is also the same feeling I got before my last sv* ten years ago, so I always relate it to that.) I got a Pepsi, and I would usually get cheddar popcorn but it sounded disgusting to me. I also had a soft but not loose bm* when I got home.

I just took 14 probiotics and a Klonopin, plan on taking a large dose of oil or oregano in about an hour and a half, and a large dose of activated charcoal a little after that, and taking some Dramamine before I go to sleep.

Also, does anyone take Bentyl? It was prescribed to my girlfriend and I read online that it can be prescribed for gastro. Anyone have experience with it? Should I take one before bed? I've taken it before, so I know I don't have adverse reactions to it.

I also just did something stupid and looked up noro in my area. All winter long I NEVER once saw an article about it being in my area, and one was posted yesterday saying it was going around. Ugh.

I haven't had a panic attack in so long, I'm sorry to panic post!