So far, today's been full of little victories in my struggle to combat emet. I've been back in counselling over the last few weeks and starting to make some progress. Today I was watching scrubs, one of the characters had an sv. Now normally, I'd instantly flick the channel over but this time I though "I'm done running" so watched the whole episode. Point one to me. I've just had lunch with a bag of crisps, normally I'd crunch them up and just shovel them into my mouth to avoid touching them with my fingers. I was just about to crunch them up then I thought "hang on, I'm on a roll today. I'm gonna make this a day of fighting back" so I bit the bullet and used my fingers and ate them normally again. I'm seeing my counsellor at 3 so this should make for some positive progress. I'm still way off from getting a sense of normality but days like this really boost my spirits. Stay strong people