I've had a few major steps forward over these last few weeks that I'm really proud of and would like to share with y'all. The first one being that a couple of weekends ago I went to Chicago to visit my boyrfriend's family. I was super nervous and scared before leaving because of obvious reasons AND because his mom had just had sv* and had been taking care of her grandchild who also had it. But I made it through. I stayed in a house with only 2 bathrooms and 8 people being there (including kids), I ate out for the first time in months, and I actually enjoyed myself. I'll be honest and say I waited to write about this accomplishment due to the fear of jinxing myself...but overall it was a success! And I was proud of myself for not ruining the weekend for my bf and everyone else.
Also, last weekend I went out to eat again and at first I did freak a bit, but again I made it through. Anddddd I'm going out to eat again tonight with some friends (so I HAVE to act "normal").
I'm still struggling all of the time with this, but I have forces myself to take some steps to try and go back to normal.
It is possible! And I'm excited to make more progress!