Oh my word...

Well I haven't been on here for a really long time, but today is just the worst.

I have been living together with my boyfriend (of 5 years) for the past year and today is the first time he really is sick.

This next part might make me sound really selffish but I just don't know how to control it.

He told me he had v* at work. Now he is on his way home. This makes me really scared because I know how he is. He is one who doesn't make it to the bathroom in time!
And he doesn't care about where it goes (as long as it's out of him).
He will v* in the bed if he had to and put the mess in the bath. I feeel so scared because it's not because of food. It's a scary bug going around at the moment... I slept next to him the whole night and kissed him good bye this morning.

It's terrifing that I just don't know what awaits me at home... I can't help but wonder if everything is cleaned properly.

I hate the feeling that I am not in control and I don't like the fact that I wish he would just go to his parents house... and disinfect everything before he comes home again.

I am seriously considering staying at work until friday!
This can't be the answer...

OMW... I wish the world would just swallow me up and be done with it.