I'm turning 21 in a few weeks and i'm really starting to get pissed off at tho phobia (and my celiac disease.) i just want to enjoy my birthday like a normal person, but I won't be able to drink and my friends and I are going to bars in the city and I know i'll just worry the entire time.

I used to drink a lot in high school before my phobia got back and I'd feel so sick every time, and i didn't care. I just want to go back to that.