I feel trapped in my body. Trapped in this phobic, anxious, panicking body. I don't see a way out of this, but there isn't another option but to live like this. Why can't i be like normal people. Why can't i be afraid of rational things, why can't i feel healthy and not sick for more than a day.

I don't really understand. but i don't see a way out from this. CBT hasn't worked, i've seen therapists and doctors and naturopaths and no one can help me.

after 8.5 years i haven't become less afraid.

i feel trapped here. in this body.