Hey everyone!
Well it's been a while..thought i would log on for the first time in months to let you know how i've been coping and to check how you are all managing with emetophobia.
Lovely to see some familiar names on these forums, will be nice to catch up with many of you.
First of all, i would like to announce that i am no longer emetophobic.
Those of you who remember me from many months ago, will recall that i had been absolutely petrified at the prospect of being sick from the age of 5 (I am now 14.)
In September, the very thought of sitting through my exams, eating something unfamiliar, going out after meal times or simply going to school got me panicking, restless and nauseated, thus leading to months of worrying. *phantom* nausea and constant stomach scares.
Hell, i was even scared to go into town due to the fear that i would become nauseated in a shop etc
Since then, i have had other problems to contend with. lol- oh yep, for the first time in my life..i had more pressing problems other than emetophobia, which had always been something that had disrupted my daily routine. fair to say that emet completely dominated my way of life for periods of time (something you can all relate to)
It was when i became completely occupied with other things that i started to *enjoy* food, stop obsessing over what i was eating, and start going out on a limb..*without* carrying peppermint oil, lavender water, domperidone tablets, rennies.. etc etc.
for the first time i was completely rid of emetophobia, and dealing with other issues such as fallout within friends gave me something else to focus on.
my issues with other people took priority. Normally, my problem would be strictly focussed on my stomach feelings, but definately not this time.
Since september i have actually vomitted myself. And even more surprising to me, was the fact that it wasn't a big deal whatsoever.
I was *glad* that i was sick, because i felt considerably better..and during the time, that was the only way i could relieve myself in order to make myself feel better.
Sorry this post is long winded! If there is anything you would like to ask, feel free.
My main objective in posting this is to inform you of this;
I have gone from being petrified of the prospect of being sick, to completely carefree. I am no longer phobic in the least..therefore there is hope for every single one of you who are still suffering.
Em x