Hi Everyone,





I am new to this forum, i have been looking online as a last resort to
what has been 18 months of hell, i know this sounds a bit over the top
but i really dont know how else to put it. I really hope that by
looking on this site i will be able to find some information to help me
with what is causing me to sink further into depression, because i dont
know what else to do.





I find myself in a catch 22 situation i realise that my panic attacks
and emetophobia may be improved by medication but i am too scared to
take medication in case it leads to me being s*k, but it is getting to
the point where i am scared to leave the house and am constantly on
guard and looking for ways out of buildings and situations in case i
need to run and be ill, the worst thing is that in the whole time that
i have been suffering from the panic attacks i havent actually been
s*k but this doesnt stop me being convinced that i will be. I only
developed this fear after feeling constantly nauseous over a period of
about 10 months, which the doctors could find no cause for, so i got
used to feeling sick when out and worrying that i would v*t, although
this has improved slightly i now suffer from panic attacks which are
increasing in frequency, i am now suffering from that at work, which
has never happened before.





Im so sorry to rant but i really dont know what to do, i cant go on like this, but i dont know the best way forward.





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Edited by: littlebebe