I haven't been posting much lately..just been taking a breather & taking it upon myself to distance myself but I had to talk to someone..
I don't like to advertise my personal life but I feel like I should right now.. Usually I prefer to keep to myself issues of this manner but I really need some support right now..I am terrified!!
I am finding this very difficult..so please bear with me, please do not view this as some plea for pity, this is a very real issue for me..

There are a great deal of things I have been dealing with right now..and I have been so very stressed... but one thing really has me unable to even sleep right now...

About 2 years ago my skin on my knees & elbows broke out into a rather red- pink flaky skin type rash..at times it gets better but nothing seems to help..and now it has spread..It has also become painful lately...Also, around the same time, I developed a red/pink rash type thing on my breasts... with time & lots of care the rash went away, but not before having a lump that had formed on the outside of my breats lanced to drain..that was 2 years ago.. The lumps have come back, but this time they are accompanied with the same skin stuff on my elbows...except they seem to be a bit less dry & more scaly...

This is really hard for me...I am very scared..
My mother, who is a CNA ( nurse assistant) , saw them and made me make an appointment for tomorrow, and she is paying, her reaction is really worrying me, she never freaks out about anything...
I looked up on the net & both look similar to something very scary for me to even think of...
I lost my father to it, my uncle, my aunt, and every female in my family has had it in one form or another...
Dear God...please do not let it be cancer...

I find out tomorrow but I can;t sleep for fear...Thank you for letting me vent..